To a Fictitious Beloved.;-)
  When eyes are burning and red   When you can’t read nor write   When you can’t cry   And yet they bleed   And you say that I am selfish. But I am more worried about you then myself. I thought that I will pull you out from this never ending despair. And we both will be happy together. But I came to a conclusion that I don’t deserve you. And I am sure that you know it. I am rejected again and again. And my emotion is shaken many times.   But the day I am spending, I can’t tell you how difficult they are. It is impossible to avoid you. I don’t know I am getting stronger or weaker.   Your difficulties you know better. My problem is “that I am not a man in possession of good fortune”. I may be crazy but I am in love. And realities are tough.     You deserve better than me.